Yesterday I didn’t have to go to work since my job observes Veterans Day. For this — and more importantly, for selflessly serving our country — I wholeheartedly salute you, dear veterans (shoutout to my Granddaddy!). Still, I instinctively woke up at 7:32 a.m. because my body is so used to getting up at early, inopportune times of the day. Per usual, the first thing I did when I woke up was grab my phone and get on Facebook. This is bad, for three reasons: 1) Some of my Facebook friends have five-below-zero chill; 2) It’s so addictively entertaining and distracting; and 3) It’s distracting me from what I should be doing when I wake up — praying and meditating. Y’all keep me unfocused and laughing uncontrollably everyday. It’s your fault.
But instead of being welcomed by some crazy, out-of-pocket meme and/or status, the first thing that popped up on my news feed was another episode from my sissy pooh’s dope new video series #30DaysofErin. At the beginning of the month she decided to challenge herself to upload a video everyday of her discussing personal topics ranging from the pressures of graduating from college to her being a virgin and waiting until marriage (willpower on FLEEK!). In this particular episode, Erin discussed the importance of disciplining ourselves to make the most of our time. With yesterday being my day off, I so needed this. God knew.
After I finished watching Erin’s video, I contemplated staying in bed for an indefinite period of time watching random B-list black movies on Netflix (my latest obsession) until I fell asleep again. But since my little sis had already low-key come for my life, I decided to officially deem yesterday “National Get My Life Together Day” and do something productive instead. I began with organizing my room.
Now everyone has that one, catch-all drawer that they just throw a whole bunch of ish in (y’all know what I’m talmbout). Well, I had two of them mugs in my room. Two. Whole. Drawers. I was beginning to feel like a guest on one of those crazy-OD hoarding shows. So I grabbed a garbage bag and got my life. I sorted through the things I wanted to keep, like journals, books, jewelry I would actually still wear, and other cute little trinkets. Then I organized and consolidated everything into one drawer. The other drawer was reserved for some of my shirts and blouses, which had been overcrowded in one drawer for far too long. I then went on to organizing my closet, which was pretty much the same process. After I completed all my tasks, I felt so light and feathery and free, like I could take on the world. I also felt like a walking dust mite, so I took a shower.
The process of cleaning out all the junk in my room made me think of all the clutter I’ve kept in my life. Too often we hold on to too many things that are merely taking up space in our mental and spiritual junk drawers. From dead-end relationships, to bitterness towards someone we fell out with and never forgave, to something traumatic that may have happened during our childhood — the list goes on and on and on. For days, months and even years we’ll store certain people and situations in our hearts and minds that are long outdated. But instead of taking the time to sort through our mess in order to make room for something/someone else, we hoard all of our circumstances because we’re simply too lazy or too afraid to let go. But once we decide to clean out the clutter, we have to take the time to sort through it and make room for the next person, place or thing that God has for us.
So what’s in your junk drawer? What are you holding on to that you need to let go of? Let me know so we can pray on it.