Ever have those days where you feel like you’re all over the damn place? Like you’ve somewhat lost your sense of direction and focus in life? That’s literally been me for the past month and some change now.
It could just be stress from my job, or the fact that this country is presently being run (down to the freaking ground) by an incompetent, pompous cheeto, but lately I’ve been feeling off. It’s been difficult for me to articulate my thoughts through my writing, which has caused me to become extremely self-conscious. I thought taking a short break from my blog would help me find some sense of renewed inspiration and peace of mind, but it actually just made me more anxious. So now, I’m just trying to figure out which way to go. Is this my time for making moves, or being still?
I know I’m probably just psyching myself out, because I’ve never really been big on doubt. I’m the type of person who goes full force after her dreams, with unwavering faith and determination, in order to make them a reality. But it feels like I’ve lost my fire. Whether it’s blogging, working to finish my book, or improving my adulting skills, it seems like I’m always ten steps behind where I need to be. It’s frustrating to be in a space where executing your vision seems impossible, even though you know you’re more than capable.
Just like every other challenge I’ve faced in life, I know this little funk I’ve been in is temporary. But snapping out of it requires developing new habits that may push me outside of my comfort zone. Like taking 20 minutes out of my day to pray and meditate, with no distractions. Or waking up a couple hours earlier in the morning to get my day started. Or verbalizing my thoughts and frustrations in therapy. It’s a process, but I know doing all of these things is ultimately preparing me for my next season. I just have to be patient, remain consistent in my efforts, and continue to trust God.
What about y’all? Have you ever experienced periods of self-doubt, fear and/or anxiety? If so, what are some coping mechanisms you’ve adopted to get through those challenging times?